Friday, August 19, 2011

My Hero Today.

This is my girl.  I know I go on and on and on and on about her.  Probably so much that maybe you are rolling your eyes right now.

But I just can't tell you what a good girl she is.  Not a moment of trouble from this girl.  Not counting the ex-lax in her Spanish Teacher's Christmas chocolate in the 8th grade.  She was an accomplice.  It's a long story.

Anyways, besides that, she is a dream.

And today she is my little hero.
I totally let her down today.  I've done it before, and I will probably do it again.  But I let her down today and I feel horrible about it and my emotions are really at the surface right now.  So please excuse my babbling.  If it happens that is.
Poised for this year's Howdy Hop.  The Howdy Hero Hop.  In a Leo she wore when she was 11. 

She totally needed me today and I didn't come through for her.  Not because I didn't want too, but because I just didn't. 

And it is kind of worse because a) she got a root canal yesterday. b) she has left the house for school at like 5 am for three days in a row, then she comes home, then she goes to work, then she comes home, then she goes to bed, then repeat. Student Council kids work hard ya'll. and c) there was a big gymnastics meet on tv this week.  And she watches them with mixed emotions.  Because she was a gymnast her whole life.  She achieved the highest level (10) she was set for a division I full-ride for gymnastics, and then she had to quit.  She pretends like she doesn't miss it, but I know she does.  I miss it for her.  I watch the meets and I have tears in my eyes the entire time because it hurts me that she put her whole self into gym and then couldn't cross the finish line, courtesy of a back injury.

That was a long c), sorry. 
Can I interrupt myself to say that it is kind of alarming that she was able to pull this outfit together without leaving the house?


I'm sorry, 2.  I'm sorry that I let you down.  I'm sorry that you had to quit gym.  My heart physically ached watching the Visa Cup, and thinking about you.  That you probably would have never been in a Visa Cup, but you for sure would have been a Desert Devil right now, and then a Cougar, or a Sun Devil.  And my heart hurts.

I hope you can forgive me for today.

And for those of you who want to know how good 2 was when she left Desert Devils, here is a link to her teammates in a meet right after she had to quit. And those are her team mates, and those are her coaches, and those are the skills she would have done.  And she has that exact Leo hanging in her closet. And how I wish she were there.  See?  Babble.

Yep.  She was totally that good.

Dear 2:

Please forgive me. Please.


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