Happy Happy.

 There isn't much worse in the World than when your kids aren't happy.

It is the absolute worse thing.

There should be a horrible name for it.

Like PitifulMiseryWorstFeelingEver.

That's the word.

 

Anyways.

My 1 is the most fabulous girl.

She really is.

 

She gets along with people and people LOVE her.

That's a talent.

 

She was a perfect first kid.

Of course I ruined her a little and she forgives me.

 

She is the fiercest Mother I have ever laid eyes on.

And that includes me.

 

She is tender and beautiful and everything that is good in the world.

She totally is.

 

But these past several years I have watched her struggle with being unhappy.

 

It was more painful for me to watch than anything I have gone through.

 

Anything.

 

And then she lost two sets of twins.

 

Two.

 

The last set being stillborn.

That was the worst day of my life.

 

And she has struggled to be happy.

But did she give up?

 

Nope.

Because she is awesome, that's why.

 

And now she is married to Michael, an unbelievably LEGIT AWESOME guy who has won the hearts of every single person who loves 1.

 

Also, we all scored a new daughter/niece/granddaughter.....Devyn McKell.

And we couldn't love her more.

 

But the best?  The best is seeing true, real happiness on my girl's face:

 

 

Every. Single. Time. I talk to her.

 

That is priceless to me.

It is everything.

 

 

Dear 1:

I am so happy to be your mom.

I am so happy that you got everything you deserved.

I am so happy that you are in my life.

 

None of us could ever live without you.

You bring sunshine and love wherever you go.

Also, you are very pretty.

And that doesn't hurt.

 

I love you so much.

Don't forget.

 

Love,

Mom